10 Things School Can't Teach Us

If I would say "Studying sucks your brain and eats your soul", someone out there might be cursing me now to be dead. But you have to admit, I am right. 

Education is important. No argue with that. It's a preparation for our oh-so-beautiful future, it's a path of brain-damaging moments or even a self-destructing pattern. It depends on the person, it depends on the money and most especially it depends on the brain. But surely, education is what we really need for us to be equipped with essential tools, as we venture ourselves in the real world (wait, are we living in a fake world?). They say "Study hard to get good grades and earn a good job. Secure yourself with knowledge to be able to get yourself a living." Applause to that. It is indeed true and people will definitely agree to me (I sound so kind here).

When you finished college and finally looking for a good job that will kill you to death, your resume will speak for you first. Whatever amazing lies you wrote there would define who you were during your college days. (just kiddin'). Unfortunately, some employers are very picky when it comes to candidates. Really picky that they use this machine to tear down your resume to pieces. To trim it down to the finest candidates, they would consider name of the school, grades, affiliations, extra curricular activities, achievements, award or even FACE VALUE is considered. Yeah, face value! You get the idea? When you literally look stupid in your picture, they'll remove you. Or if your make-up makes you look like a sexy bitch holding a disco stick, they'll judge you. Not saying all employers, but at least we know at some point its happening. So might as well not include picture my friend. After all, you'll pass it once you get hired. Anyway, these things will speak for you when employers get a hold of your resume. And some resume are really impressive, as I may say. What if you don't have extraordinary achievements or top of the mountain grades to flaunt? Well sorry, it's your fault coz you're a lazy kid who always copy during exams and sleep during class. But to defend my friends who are like that (Sorry friends, at least give me time to explain) I believe it's not really fair for everyone. We get to be judged by our grades, coz basically grades are everything! Low grades = stupid; High grades = nerd. How fair could that be?

Somehow I thought of why the hell we don't include sections in our resume like "The Most Annoying Guy Award, The Most Quiet, The Killer Smile, The Sexy Bitch Candidate" or even "Drinking Master Awardee, Early Bird, War-Freak-Who-Could-Defend-You-Anytime Awardee or The-One-Who-Got-Away Kid"? It's surprisingly cool if we get to write it down don't you think? I mean hey, do really grades or achievements would get us the job? Or our personality, character or entirely our humanity really matter? Some would say to me "That's why there is an interview conducted to applicants, to know them more." Yeah right. But what comes first before interview? RESUME. It's your resume first before interview.

Going back to education, surely it is very important. So important that it will make you less stupid even if you are. But I firmly believe, Education is just an asset. Degree is just an asset. What you learned in school is useless if you don't apply it. Application of learning is essential for us to grow, not by just sitting in a four-cornered room waiting for the bell to ring and pass all the requirement of the subject. We apply what we learn from school for us to fully gain something from it. But what school can't really teach us? You might be wondering what are those things. Actually, I bet you've been cursing me for this long introduction before the main point. Well then, let's get down to it. It may surprise you, but I'm pretty sure you'd say "Hey, this guy is damn right." 

1. They teach us to read, but they don't teach us how to comprehend. It's easy to read once you learned it, but you can't be taught of how to understand what you are reading. Furthermore, they can't teach us how to understand others, especially if others are really a pain in the ass.

2. They teach us to talk, but they don't teach us how to speak for ourselves. We learn to say things we want using our mouth, but we can't be taught of what to say in the right time, at the right place, and to the right person. 

3. They teach us to solve math problems, but they don't teach us to solve our problems. In math, we solve a problem, answered it correctly, be proud of it, and the next week "Oh shit, how to do it again?". In life, we solve our problem, find resolution to it, learned from it, and the next time "No shits, I know this and I know what to do."

4. They teach us right things, but they don't teach us the right feeling. We have to do what is right in this world, for the benefit of looking good in the eyes of the people. We follow rules imposed and keep a good record to make yourself look godly. However, even if we learn to do what is right, seldom we don't feel that right feeling about it. We do what is right but we feel wrong about it (Can someone please raise a hand if you can relate with me?). What we feel can't be taught by others, and what is right is not always right for us.

6. They teach us morality, but they don't teach us how to be human. What is morality for you? It's like doing what a good guy should do. It's like doing the right things all the time. But morality depends on race, person and culture. In school, they teach us to be morally upright. But in reality, they can't teach us how to do it. They can't teach us to be a human being our way. It's easy to be human, and its freaking hard to be humane.

7. They teach us about God, but they don't teach us how to be faithful. We learned that God is the savior of humanity, that we must follow His teaching and words. But they can't teach us to be faithful. There are people in this world who lose their faith in God, for reasons we may not know. There are also people who just don't believe in Him. Faithfulness depends on the person's belief. And being faithful is a case to case scenario.

8. They teach us about family, but they don't teach us how to be a parent. Family is important. They teach us the importance of family communication, recreation and bonding. They teach us to respect each member of our family. Damn right! However, they can't teach us how to raise your children, can't teach us how to solve family problem, and can't teach us how to be a parent for our offspring.  

9. They teach us about friends, but they don't teach us who to be friends with. Peers may define you, they also influence you. They say that no man is an island. That's why we need friends. They teach us how to approach them nicely and how to make friends. But seriously, they can't say to us who to be friends with or the people we want to spend our days with. They can't teach us how to act stupid with friends, do crimes with friends (really crimes?), how to get high with them, how to back stab a friend (hehe), or even what kind of friends we prefer (I'd like to make rich friends, and use them. lol). 

10. They teach us history, but they don't teach us our future. We wonder why we have to study history over and over again, as if we could use it when we work as a crew in McDonalds "Goodmorning sir! Did you know that in 1973, the government of blah blah blah created this blah blah that is why I'm asking you now, what is your order?" Really? But the idea of studying history is for us to know where it all began. However, school can teach us history but will never ever predict our future. They can help us plan for our future, but they can't teach us what we really want.

There is one more thing school can't teach us that I didn't include there. I want it to "shine" on its own, coz I think it's the most important thing in this entry. They can teach us what is love, but they can never ever teach us how to love or whom to love. I remember the kinds of love I learned in school, (platonic love etc, and as far as I know, I failed the quiz about it. How stupid could I get?!) I can't remember the others, but I think it's like four kinds of love. They educate us of what is love, but loving somebody? That's a different story. Love is amazing. So amazing that you get to be attracted to the person not your type, fall in love with someone you treat as brother/sister, fall in love with same sex, fall in love with someone older than you, or fall in love with the same person who ignores you a lot. See how amazing it is? It's unexpected. It's painful. School can't teach us those things. They can add knowledge to what is love, but the meaning varies from person to person.

Lastly, school can educate us and can add knowledge for our betterment. I'm not saying "Don't study and just read this entry over and over again until you die!" or "What are you doing?! Stop thinking about that math subject and just solve your problem! After all, its all that matters!" I'm not saying it that way. I want you to realize that school is just a part of our learning in this world. The most essential learning we could in this life is not taught inside the school. It can be learned over time, by self, others and experiences.

Girls and Boys

WHY DO GIRLS DON'T SHUT UP and WHY DO BOYS DON'T LISTEN?

I'm not a professional to say that I know the reasons behind this menace. But I don't need to be one just to know why. All I need is an open mind , hands to type, and Biogesic (incase my head hurts).

Do you ever wonder why girls keep on telling stories while boys tend to not listen? The answer is simple. (Drum roll please?). Girls don't shut up because boys don't listen, and boys don't listen because girls don't shut up. While I was looking at my ceiling counting molecules, I thought of it. My mind randomly buffer lots of ideas and to my surprise, I concluded one thing: I AM HUNGRY. So I grab something to eat and sat on my bed, murmuring things like I was talking to Buddha.

Some girls don't shut up (Please don't curse me. I used the term "some" to save myself. Swear, I'll do your thesis!). Based on my observations, a lot of girls talk about this and that. Ask them the latest episode of Gossip Girls, and they would even dish out the latest episode of America's Next Top Model. Holy cheesecake! You don't need to watch it for yourself! Anyway, to make this entry really substantial, I would dare myself to put this in the concept of relationship. And here where the fun begins. Trust me, you'll realize why I said some girls don't shut up (Please, read the whole entry before asking your dad to kill me. Thank you).

Personally, I think girls don't shut up because they CARE. One good thing about a girl is how she handles you with care. They talk a lot, but it's nothing to be scared of. It's not a disease! It's potentially present when they were born. Although we have what we call extrovert and introvert, I would choose not to include and expand this entry because of it. It may get a little bit boring. And frankly speaking, I'm not in the mood to elaborate those personality types coz there will be no examinations later on.

Fights are included in a relationship. Believe it or not, it's a package! When you enter a relationship, expect lots of trials and problems. In times of problems, I observed some girls who don't just shut up and don't let things cool for minute. Seriously, they we're like "What the hell blah blah blah! You said blah blah blah! Then blah blah blah! What now blah blah blaahhhh!!!" and BOOM! (w/ feelings) It became Cococrunch! If words could only kill, a lot of boys are dead now. But boys, you should know why some girls are like that. At some point, open your little mind and think. They only care. They won't get mad and continue talking if you did not do something stupid and undesirable like painting your nails with flowers or wearing their bra. No, seriously, they only care for you. HOWEVER, I realized that girls keep on talking as if they know every details! When they ask, they tend to not believe. And when you say the truth, they tend to think you're telling a lie. (Insert: Natutulog ba ang Diyos).

On the other hand, some boys don't listen. I told you earlier, it is due to the never-ending over-the-counter mouth girls purchased. Boys don't listen and pretend they don't hear anything because they don't want things to get worse. But they don't realize that not listening is actually the reason behind why girls don't shut up. Talking a lot is not a man's thing. A lot of guys keep their mouth shut and pretend they are actually listening. But deep inside they we're like "You b*tch, will you please let things cool for a minute?!" Girls, you should know that some boys only listen when you let things cool for a minute. You don't have to say words like knives for boys to realize that you're angry or what. THEY LISTEN with their own ways. Trust me, when boys talk about their feelings, you should throw a party.

Let me give a concrete scenario to apply this idea. Let's take SMOKING as an example to elaborate things mentioned above. Smoking is common among boys. For some girls, it's really a turn off. In a relationship, some girls keep on asking boys to stop smoking. And when boys can't, they will get angry. And when they get angry about this, sometimes it's the cause of fighting. Girls don't shut up as if they know everything. And boys don't listen as if they can do anything by themselves. Smoking is bad, but it's an addiction some boys can't kick in a snap. You should understand that there's a process stop it. Boys, you should know that some girls don't shut up about matters concerning about you because they only care. And Girls, don't think that boys don't actually listen. They have their own ways. Some boys choose to lose an argument than to lose their girl. You should know that. 

That's it, the ingredient of boys and girls. Anyway, Buddha asked me to let my mind rest now. Thanks for reading.

YOUR LOVE NUMBER

Hindi ka tao pag hindi mo naranasan ang F.L.A.M.E.S or ung H.O.P.E na laro nung kabataan mo pa. It's a game wherein aalamin mo kung bagay kayo ng labidabs mo. Eto makabago! Ang alamin ang LOVE NUMBER mo. Simple lang naman kung paano ba to gawin. Here are the steps:

1 - A J S

2 - B K T

3 - C L U

4 - D M V

5 - E N W

6 - F O X

7 - G P Y

8 - H Q Z

9 - I R

STEPS TO FOLLOW

1. Obviously, get a pen and a paper kasi hindi mo to magagawa mentally. MAHIRAP kaya wag ka nang umasa. HAHA

2. Write down your full name. Kahit hindi na kasama ang meaning ng middle initial mo, but still isama ang middle initial. INITIAL lang ah. (eg. JORDAN U. JUBINAL)

3. Write down kung kelan ka pinanganak. Obviously, ang birthday mo. Pero! Dapat using numbers na lang. (eg. Ako, AUGUST 14 1990. Meaning, dapat ganito ang isusulat mo - 08/14/1990.)

4. Then after doing that, tumambling ka. Gawin mo to three times. Then ihampas ang ulo sa pader, dapat my dugo. :)

5. Epal ng step 4. Ok back to reality. Ganito ang gagawin mo. Diba may mga digits sa taas. Get the digit that corresponds to the letters in your complete name. (eg. J-1, O-6, R-9, D-4, A-1, N-5, U-3, J-1, U-3, B-2, I-9, N-5, A-1, L-3, so the numbers are 16941531329513.)

6. Then add each number. Oo, iaadd mo lang bawat isa. Ang simple diba? Gawin mo na! (eg. 1+6+9+4+1+5+3+1+3+2+9+5+1+3 = 53)

7. Then do the same thing with your birthday. Iadd mo lang din ung numbers. Basta iadd mo na! HAHA. (eg. 0+8+1+4+1+9+9+0 = 32)

8. After that, simply add the result of your name and birthday. (eg. 53+32 = 85)

9. So after mo makuha ung sagot, just simply add 3. Bakit 3? Well it's believed to be the LOVE NUMBER. Basta mag-add ka ng 3. Ayoko na magexplain pa. AHAHAHA!! (eg. 85+3 = 88)

10. Ngayon nakuha mo na yung resulta, matuwa ka na dahil malapit ka na matapos. AHAHA. Take a break. Inhale.. exhale.. then magyosi break ka muna kung nagyoyosi ka. AHAHA! :)

11. After taking a break (HEHE. :P), Just simply add the digits in the final answer. Just add it until isang digit na lang ang matira. (eg. 8+8 = 16. 1+6 = 7)

Ok that's all! My LOVE NUMBER IS 7. Gawin mo lang din ung same procedure sa complete name and birthday ng labidabs mo, prospek mo or crush mo. And when nagawa mo na at parehas kayo ng LOVE NUMBER, it is said to be that you are meant to be or you're compatible with each other so much. :) ARTE? ahaha! Kase diba nga, the chance of having the same number is not that high kase magkaiba kayo ng name at birthday. So meant to be kayo pag parehas kayo ng LOVE NUMBER. DO IT! IT'S FUN! :)

NOTE: Para mas maganda ang daloy ng paghahanap mo ng LOVE NUMBER niyo, isipin mo lang mismo yung tao na gusto mo. :) I bet that you're actually thinking about him/her right now. HAHA. :P ENJOY!

Sweet Nothings

When you need to show how much you love your girl, you don't have to push yourself to the limit of being so dumb doing everything just to please her. Be as simple as you are, you don't have to be someone you're not. Trust me, it's better to say words from your heart, than to do some actions with your brain and only your brain. Remember, women fall in love with their ears. Simple words from the bottom of your heart are enough to let her feel your love.

Simple yet sweet things that a boy can do for a girl:

1. Know what are the thing that she don't like, and just be all the things that she would like.
2. Don't just ask her what completes her day, be the one who completes her life.
3. You may not be the one she's wishing for, but you could be the one she thought she would never have.
4. Don't overprotect her with your rules and power, just embrace her with your arms where she could find security and comfort.
5. Don't just give your time loving her, you have forever and a lifetime to be with her. 
6. Choose to lose in an argument, than to lose your girl.
7. Don't just respect her because she's your girl, respect her because she's a lady.
8. Doubt her words if you need to, but trust her actions coz it's all that counts.
9. Don't just forgive and forget, learn to understand and accept.
10. Don't count goodbyes, count the times when she comes back.
11. Don't be afraid to show your weakness, just show to her that she's your strenght.
12. Don't just give her everything that she wants, be everything that she needs.
13. Tell her that you WANT her by your side, and you NEED her in your life.
14. Tell her that you don't need a million reason to keep her, you just need one good reason not to let her go.
15. Hold her hands, and be the hand that lifts her veil.

A man don't need to be a superman just to do all the impossibles. Just like in a typical love story; simple thoughts, words and actions are enough for her to say "I LOVE YOU TOO..." So why do you have to worry doing everything to make her yours? When you got forever to make her fall in love over and over again. :)

Mind your Heart.

Minsan, kahit ayaw mo at di mo sinasadya, makakasira ka ng relasyon ng iba. Minsan, kahit na may girlfriend o boyfriend ka, hindi mo maiiwasang magkagusto o mainlove sa iba. At kadalasan, kahit mahal niyo ang isa't isa, hindi pwedeng maging kayo dahil nakatali kayo sa iba. Ganyan maglaro ang pag-ibig. Kahit na ang pinakamadiskarte o pinakamatalinong tao sa mundo, hindi maiiwasang masaktan kapag nagmahal.

Sa buhay mo, natural na ang madapa, basta babangon ka. Walang taong nadapa na habambuhay na nakahandusay sa lupa, at walang taong bumangon na hindi nadapa ulit. Ganyan pag nagmamahal, hindi pwedeng hindi ka masasaktan. Magkadikit na yan. Kahit lumuhod ka diyan sa bahay niyo papunta sa simbahan ng Baclaran, kakadasal na sana hindi ka masaktan, hinding hindi mangyayari yun, dahil sa masasaktan at masasaktan ka pa rin KUNG nagmamahal ka ng totoo.

Mabait ang Diyos, alam niya ang ginagawa niya at alam niya kung paano niya tayo ginawa. Magkahiwalay na ginawa ng Diyos ang UTAK at PUSO ng tao. Ginawa ang utak para MAG ISIP, ginawa ang puso para MAGMAHAL.Ginawa ang utak para maisip nating gamitin ang puso para magmahal. Pero kung mapapansin niyo, nilagay ang utak na mas mataas kesa sa puso, para ipaalala satin na hindi sa lahat ng pagkakataon, dapat unahin ang puso kesa sa utak. Kahit sabihin mong dapat gamitin ang puso pag tayo ay nagmamahal at hindi ang utak, isipin mo nalang.. "God placed our heart at the LEFT side of our body, that's why it's not always RIGHT." Ginawa ang utak para malaman natin ang pagkakaiba ng tama sa mali, at oo sa hindi. Yan ang hindi kayang gawin ng puso, dahil para sa puso.. lahat tama at walang hindi. Ginawa ang puso para maramdaman natin ang TAMA, ginawa ang utak para maisip natin ang MALI. Ang problema lang kasi sating mga tao, habang ginagamit ang puso para magmahal, mas lalong kumikitid ang utak. Puso lang ang may kakayahang makaramdam ng sakit na dulot ng pagmamahal. Kaya nga magkahiwalay silang ginawa, para maisip nating protektahan ang puso. Kaya gamitin ang utak, dahil lang yan ang may kakayahang makaisip kung tama o mali na ang ginagawa ng ating puso.

Sometimes, there are things that you don't want to hold on, but you can't let go. Bakit? Dahil alam ng utak na MALI na ang magpakatanga ka pa, at ramdam ng puso na TAMA na ipagpatuloy pa. Kaya ayaw nating bitawan kahit alam nating mali. At kaya gusto nating ipagpatuloy kahit alam nating mahirap. Pero teka.. alam niyo ba kung bakit dalawa kamay ng tao? Simple lang. Isa sa RIGHT side, para ipaalala sating kunin at gawin ang mga bagay na TAMA na magpapasaya satin. At isa sa LEFT, para ipaalala sating IWAN at kalimutan ang mga bagay na nagpapalungkot satin. One on the right side to HOLD ON, and one on the left side to LET GO. Dapat matuto tayong ibalance ang buhay natin, dahil tayo lang din naman mismo ang nagpapasaya at nagpapahirap sa buhay natin.

Alam niyo din ba kung bakit hindi sabay na humahakbang ang mga paa ng tao kapag naglalakad? Hindi lang para hindi tayo magmukhang tanga, kundi para ipaalala sa atin na sa bawat hakbang na ginagawa ng isa nating paa, may chance pang makabalik tayo sa pwesto natin ng ligtas dahil maiiwan sa likod ang isa nating paa. Kung sabay silang hahakbang habang tayo ay naglalakad, matututo na tayong magdalawang isip kung babalik pa ba tayo sa pwesto natin dahil walang kasiguraduhan na ligtas tayong makakabalik. Ganyan din sa buhay, minsan kelangan mong umatras sa mga bagay kapag alam mo na hindi na magandang ipagpatuloy pa. Minsan kase, may pagkakataon na napipilitan tayong ipagpatuloy ang isang bagay dahil nasimulan na natin. "It's easy to start SOMETHING, but it's hard to finish EVERYTHING." Kaya nga dapat, when you take the risk, be sure that it's worth the risk. Hindi ka tanga, kaya wag kang magpapakatanga. Hindi ka bobo, kaya magisip ka.

Mabait ang Diyos. Kaya wag kang mag-iisip na ikaw na ang pinakawalang kwentang tao sa mundo, na ikaw ang pinakapanget na nilalang o ikaw ang pinakamalas na tao dito sa mundo. Lahat ng tao nagkakaproblema. Walang taong nabuhay na ni minsan hindi nasaktan. Kung pakiramdam mo na MALAS ka, isipin mo na lang na SWERTE ka kase buhay ka. Smile. :D Life is LOVE.

Confidence, Sacrifice, Bravery and Trust.

What are CONFIDENCE, SACRIFICE, BRAVERY and TRUST?

CONFIDENCE is saying YES to what you think is YES.

SACRIFICE is saying NO to what you think is YES.

BRAVERY is saying NO to what you think is NO.

TRUST is saying YES to what you think is NO.

Relationship is full of surprises. It's like riding a roller-coaster. No matter how hard you try to make everything okay, still.. the chances that it might go VERY well is unclear. There's always a tendency to cry or to feel pain in a relationship. What matters most is the way you deal with all the problems TOGETHER.

NEVER DEMAND, just suggest. We shouldn't demand them to do whatever we like or to impose different rules. Especially if you're not yet married.

It's not right to demand them to follow us and to act as if there are consequences later on -"Mahal mo ba ko? Itigil mo yang pagyoyosi mo ngayon na! Kung hindi, break na tayo." or "Iinom ka na naman? Wag na kase! Umuwi ka na anong oras na oh. Pag-aawayan na naman nating yang pag-inom mo na yan."

Just simply suggest - "Kaya mo bang itigil ang pagyoyosi mo? Kase masama yan sayo eh. Try mo itigil ha? Para din naman sayo yan.. hindi para sakin." or "May inuman na naman ba kayo? Pwede bang konti lang inumin mo? Dalikado kase kung uuwi kang lasing lalo na ngayong gabi. Try mo dahan dahanin ah?"

You see the difference? It's not being stupid or numb - "Nagpapa-under ka sa syota mo kaya paeasy easy ka ng approach sa kanya kase takot kang mawala siya at ikaw ang masisi dahil sa mga sinabi mo.." - It's all about being WISE enough - "Hindi ka nagpapaunder, tinuturuan mo lang din siyang maging sensitive sa ginagawa niya, in a way na beneficial din sa kanya. The way we say things could actually affect the way they are to us. We should try to approach them without being so DEMANDING. It's not healthy for a relationship if there are too many rules to follow. It's not even right for us to set rules that would control them as if we're Gods. If you're not yet married, NEVER act as if you are. Things may change, but we have the power to make these changes as well. WHO KNOWS? Maybe the way you act negatively, would cause the person to leave you behind even if he/she loves you. Or maybe the way we say things, could give the person the reason to hurt us as well. So don't exaggerate things and act as if you're married.. coz even married couple finds it hard to deal with some problems together.. What more if you're not yet married? How would you deal if you're the one giving the reason for things to happen..?

Be wise enough to make your relationship last for a long time. Handle it with CONFIDENCE, SACRIFICE if it's worh sacrifing for, be BRAVE enough to admit your mistakes. And learn to TRUST yourself and your partner. :)

How Powerful Are Prayers?

"Prayers are land-line to heaven." 

Being hopeless romantic sucks, but prayers can save you from yourself. 

Falling in love is priceless - the feelings, happiness, smiles, giggles, the way she/he looked at you, the way she/he stares at you.. it all feels sooo damn good. When I was younger, I admit that I was once a hopeless romantic. Who in the world never felt like one? If there is, whoever you are.. well congratulations! You're on my list to kill. (Just kidding... No, I'm serious).

Let me tell you a story, a true story, so true that I want to make it a movie, or a short film. When I share this story with friends, they were like "Awww. That's sweet!" and I was like "Okay, how much do I need to pay you guys?". But seriously, until now I am very thankful with what I got, rather than what I really wanted.

They say, if God's answer is negative, the reason is affirmative. I salute with that. I believe God has plans for all of us. We just have to wait. It doesn't mean that if it did not happen, it won't happen. There are right time for right things at the right places. Everything are planned to be there, you just need to be patient and faithful. 

So here's my story. A story until now, I keep a secret. 

I once fell in love with a person named "Booger" (Note: Not the real name, and I prefer this name. It's cute! Though it sound disgusting). Booger and I had been good friends in my imaginary world. Yes, I feel like we're really close but that's just in the world created by my little brain. The moment I saw Booger, everything in my surrounding stopped, and I was like moving - as a result.. it freaked me out. Seriously, when I saw Booger, my world started changing and I felt a sudden change in me - Oh my Jesus Christ! I'M IN LOVE. The feeling was uncontrollable. Everytime Booger was around -  I stuttered, I couldn't stop smiling, I couldn't stop being dramatic, I couldn't stop being the center of attention, I couldn't stop looking at Booger, and I couldn't stop being in love. It's really true, when you fell in love, it feels so damn good. But when you fell in love with the wrong person.. well, that's a different story. I asked God to give Booger to me, but I felt like I need to do something rather than waiting alone. (Applying the concept of " Nasa Diyos ang Awa, Nasa Tao ang Gawa). 

I won't make this part long, coz it might get a little boring. Here's a list of what I did before to catch Booger's attention and to at least push destiny to bear with me:

• I always wait for Booger's service to arrive from school. I sat in front of their house and pretend looking at how birds fly and thinking how to solve Philippines' problem. And that's everyday, no exemption to the rule even if I am sick or what. I have to see Booger or else I might die. I remember calling Booger's service as "Service ng mga Bangkay", coz they all appear like dead creatures inside. They were all sleeping like they worked for 54 hours straight."
• I have my freedom notebook. It's a compilation of my unspoken feelings for Booger.
• Everything Booger gave to me, I considered it all to be a treasure. I put in a small box with all the garbage from Booger (the first one was the TOSTILLAZ wrapper, and eversince, it's my favorite junk food.)
• I always tell myself "I will never go home until I saw Booger straight from the eyes, which I managed to experience. Plus, it literally kill me everyday when Booger smiled at me. Seriously. Hahahaha!
• I have my theme song for Booger. You can search and listen to it. It's the most applicable song at that time. (Ewan ko - Soapdish)
• And lastly, everytime I go to mass, I always pray for Booger to fall in love with me, and be mine.

But I felt like something was missing. Something was not right. I have to push myself to the limit. I had to. So, with the blessings of all the elements of the world, I began asking and wishing for what seems to be impossible.

• I asked for signs like date, color, numbers, events and circumstances.
• I wished to be with Booger for not less than 10 minutes a day. We hadn't been together with each other for that long. And that's serious. We never had been together to talk, catch up with each other or whatever thing to do. We're good friends, but not as close as you imagine.
• I wished Booger to look at me in my eyes like I'm the only person around. Haha!
• I wished we could spend more time during weekends.
• I wished Booger to tell me everything I need to know in my life. Basically I want Booger to be the one teaching me how to live my life.
• I wished to see Booger every single day of my life.
• And lastly, I wanted Booger to fall in love with me as well.

Having all these in my mind, I realized I had been wishing for what seems to be impossible to have. Booger's standards were really high and I am not meant to be that person. I felt wishing for something that's never gonna happen in my life. But still I did wish for it all. After all, what do I have to lose anyway?

However, I got tired of waiting. Nothing was changing, except my complexion due to sun exposure during C.A.T. Plus, I realized I've been outdated with the latest news about my friends. I focused more with what I want, and ignored what I really had in my life. I was so stupid, ignorant, imbecile, moron, insolent.. (C'monnn Dan, think of other negative adjectives to pretend you are intelligent! :P)

October 2, 2003, the very first time Booger smiled at me, was the best day of my life. So ever since I started to make it as my OWN anniversary and make 2 as my lucky number. (How stupid and hopeless could I get?!) I had been loving Booger for 3 years in a row without asking anything in return. And that's serious. I devoted my time and effort for something I wouldn't have in my life. So later on I realized to just give up and continue living. After all, even if I move on or what, the world would not slow down for me, I still got to get moving.

I decided to give up and ignore my feelings. I had to. I had been so focused with Booger and forgot that I have my own life to deal with. So yeah, I diminished every single memory I have, including the freedom notebook I kept for a long time. 

After years, I began renewing myself. Booger and I, well we're still the same. It was night of Dec 1 (I forgot the year, but of course I remember the date coz I had written it), I realized I missed Booger. I thought of all the things I did for Booger, and I couldn't help but just to laugh at myself. I prayed that night. I told God "Please Papa God, Dec 2 bukas. Alam mo naman favorite number ko ang 2 diba? Sana makita ko si Booger or sana may mangyare man lang na kakaiba bukas, Pakita lang ni Booger na importante ako, kahit sa anong paraan, okay na ko. Thank you." I prayed for something I want. It's just a reward for myself for being so strong in moving on without anything in return. So why not just a little twist for my day? After all, it's been a while.

The next morning, our maid woke me up. She said that someone's waiting for me outside. That time I wasn't in the mood to wake up and walk. I knew it would be those friends of mine who wanted to spend the day in our house. But still I checked it. And what do I saw? It's Booger, smiling and waiting outside. :)

I went down after I brushed my teeth. I couldn't stop smiling. 

       "Oh bakit ka andito?" Saying while I was smiling with all my heart.

I got the simplest yet romantic answer in my entire existence..

       Booger said, "Ah wala.. namiss lang kita." 

That moment, I died. But I have to be really alive to keep the conversation going. I was so happy! And I couldn't help but just smile all the time. Then Booger said, "Oh sige, napadaan lang talaga ako kase namiss kita."

You know what, based on my own experience, I can tell you guys.. GOD ANSWERS OUR PRAYERS. I found myself experiencing what I have been wishing for, but the other way around (Hehe.) Before I was asking for some signs like dates and colors, Now it seems that I dont have to do it anymore. Before, I wanted Booger to stay with me for at least not less than 10mins, Now, Booger spend time with me more than an hour and a day is not enough for us to talk and be together. Before, I wanted Booger to see me like I was the only person around, Now I'm the only one Booger can lean on when things go wrong and answers are hard to find. I was praying that we could spend more time together on Saturdays and Sundays coz we dont have any classes. Now we spend more time not only on weekends, but also during weekdays even if we do have classes the next day. If before I was wishing Booger can look at me straight into my eyes, Now, Booger won't only look at me in the eyes but can also tell me if my face is dirty. (Only True Friends Will Tell You If Your Face Is Dirty. Remember that.) If before I was wishing to see Booger everyday, Now I don't need to wish for that, i will be able to see Booger if I wanted to. I just have to simply send a text "wala ako kasama. san ka?" the most often reply I would received "teka, puntahan kita." And If before I was wishing Booger to love me.. nahhh.. I think I don't have to. I can feel the love even if its not the kind of love I had wished for.

My prayers were not answered the way I want it to be, but I got blessings that I never expected to have. After so long of praying and waiting, we're now together. Not as lovers, but BEST FRIENDS. Yes, we are now best of friends. No commitments, no break ups. Pure love, mutual love and unconditional love. It's better than being together, at least I found a great friend, and God gave me what I need to have - someone to rely on when things go wrong, and someone in my life who's a living proof that GOD answers prayers.